I would like to share with you what I think you need to know in order to live effectively, and if all goes well, overcome the symptoms of PD and restore your health. In determining an appropriate title for this post, I was hesitant to include the number, 18. It’s not a round number, like 10, and it’s big number. I was concerned that it might be overwhelming. But the reality is, PD is a complex condition requiring a comprehensive protocol. You can’t simply treat it with a pill.
This post is about dissolving emotional pain, but before I get to that, let me give you some background.
I recently decided to reduce my daily Sinemet dosage. At the same time, I decided to attempt to isolate and quantify the effects of CBD oil. Initially, I was doing quite well on both fronts. I had reduced my Sinemet dosage by a half a tablet per day with no ill effects. Then I cut my daily CBD dosage in half [from 40 mg to 20 mg] and my symptoms got worse. When I returned my dosage to 40 mg a day I felt better.
I was planning to further reduce my Sinemet dosage while doing more experimentation with CBD oil, however, my efforts seem to have been subverted by my inadvertent triggering of unresolved emotional energy. Let me explain.
It was a year ago that I found myself hospitalized, scared, deep in a prolonged state of panic and unable to move my legs. Seven days after being admitted, I walked out of the hospital, went home and shoveled snow! What led to this dramatic change, was quite simply, medication! There was also a change in outlook, but it came later!
After several consultations with a doctor at the hospital, I agreed to give levodopa and sertraline a try [this after seventeen years of being medication free]! It worked!
The other day I found myself unwittingly pondering some experiences from my past of which I am not particularly proud. An announcement concerning the upcoming reunion of a hockey team I used to play for triggered the unpleasant trip down memory lane.
If you have been following my blog, you will likely know my belief is this neurological condition we’re experiencing, in fact any challenge we are facing, is meant to guide us to an understanding of our true nature and purpose! It has spiritual meaning!
It is meant for us to learn that we are more than just physical beings here to amass and consume. We are not just the physical bodies we inhabit, nor are we our thoughts and beliefs, or the emotions we feel. We are actually spiritual beings having a human experience, living in oneness with the universal-energetic-intelligence [God]. We are the conscious observers of our body, thoughts, feelings and experiences. This is Eckhart Tolle’s primary message!
But how do we live spiritually given the daily challenges we face? How do we live spiritually when we are in a state of anxiety, trembling, shuffle walking, trying to maintain our balance, struggling to perform simple tasks like tying up our shoes or getting out of a chair, or experiencing constipation? It’s not easy!
To begin, I remind myself every day that what I am experiencing has purpose. Not only is it meant to guide us to spiritual awakening, it is also meant to guide us away from fear, to divine love! To reinforce this, each day I recite my spiritual version of the 23rd Psalm as well as my divine love mantra [see below].
Next, I do my best to live in the present moment. This is another one of Eckhart’s key messages. It is okay to reflect on the past, but we don’t live in it. Similarly, it is okay to plan for the future, but we don’t live in it. We only ever live in the present moment. It’s all there is. I do my best to place my attention on whatever I am doing. I also focus on my breath or simply look around and observe.
Whenever the present moment is unpleasant I do my best to accept the circumstances and remind myself that it is only temporary. It will pass!
I spend time in nature! I love the serenity and I can sense the healing energy! There is nothing quite like the joy of walking through the forest or sitting by the lake!
I talk to the universal-energetic-intelligence. I carry on a conversation just like I would as if I was talking to you. I give thanks. I make observations. It is a great way to connect with the divine!
I live lovingly! I am kind, compassionate, generous, grateful and forgiving! My mantra is, we could change the world simply by being kind to one another!
I practice Qigong. Qigong is about cultivating chi [energy]. It is a very spiritual practice!
I pray as an expression of gratitude!
I yell hallelujah! As I discussed in my last post, this too is a great way to connect with the divine!
I believe in my heart living spiritually is a big, essential step towards recovering my health! At the very least, it helps me to manage my day-to-day challenges in a more loving manner!
23rd Psalm [spiritual version]:
The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not want. Spirit makes me lie down in green pastures and leads me beside still waters. Spirit restores my soul and leads me down a path of spiritual awakening for my highest good. Spirit helps me to feel good about myself. Yea though I walk through the valley of the shadow of impermanence I shall fear no darkness, for thou art with me. Your love and compassion comfort me. You help me to understand, accept and let go of my past, and in the process, you help me to forgive. You also help me to live in the present moment. My life is filled with abundance. Surely peace love joy abundance and bliss will be with me all the rest of my days. And I will dwell in spiritual consciousness forever! Hallelujah!
Divine love mantra:
The universal-energetic-intelligence, which is pure love, wishes to expand itself. It wishes to expand love in the universe, through experience. Through my experience and the experience of every other entity in the universe. We are the vessels for the expression and expansion of love. And the best thing I can do to contribute to this expansion is to fully surrender to the will and wisdom of the universal-energetic-intelligence; live in love by being kind, compassionate, generous, forgiving and grateful; acknowledge my true essence which is divine love; and live in the present moment. And I can do this, because I live in spiritual consciousness and I choose to celebrate life. I choose to honour and enjoy the journey and embrace the adventure. I am so grateful for the opportunity I’ve been given to participate in the flow-of-life and contribute to the expansion of divine love! Hallelujah!
In his book, A New Earth, Eckhart Tolle discusses the importance of enlightened doing, which means, living in spiritual consciousness rather than ego. It could also be stated as, being aware of our thoughts and material motivations, rather than lost in them. He also says, when we are more focused on the goal, rather than what we are doing in the present moment, we create stress for ourselves, and stress is what we need to eliminate in order to recover our health.
I would like to share with you, three spiritual observations that I recently posted on Facebook that have helped me immensely in living peacefully and optimistically with this challenging neurological condition … because it certainly has been challenging!
We are all wondrously connected by an unseen energy, so powerful, so full of love, it is to defy the human imagination! It is in every atom in our bodies and every atom in the universe! It is what we call God and it is pure divine love!
We cannot change the past! We can only accept it! We can however influence the future by what we do in the present moment! In filling the now with love, we create a beautiful tomorrow!
True empowerment comes from the awareness that as divine spiritual beings living in oneness with all that is, we are the architects of all the experiences that make up our life journey. We are only victims in belief, never in actuality!
I am excited to announce the rerelease of my first book, The History Teacher! I first published it in 2010 and decided to give it a makeover after the release of my second book, The History Teacher 2.0, which I published through a new self-assisted publisher, FriesenPress. Quite frankly, I wanted to clean it up a bit. It was my first effort, and grammatically, it needed some work. So it’s the same story, but a much smoother read! If you would like to check out the storyline, go to the Fred’s Books page.
Thank you so much for your support and for taking the time to read my books! Please know that I appreciate it enormously!
I am presently writing the third instalment of The History Teacher trilogy and hope to have it published by the end of this year. After that, I plan to begin writing, The Kid!
This past November, Mari urged me to get more dedicated to my daily recovery protocol. It’s a regimine I created three years ago before I retired from teaching martial arts and moved to Manitoulin Island. At the time, it consisted of 15 physical activities that were intended to support my recovery protocol; activities such as walking, doing push-ups and practising Qigong. I created an Excel spreadsheet to track my progress each day, putting a check mark beside each activity I completed.
I recently watched a Super Soul Conversation Oprah Winfrey conducted with Gary Zukov, author of Seat of the Soul. During their delightful chat, I was reminded of how important it is for me to acknowledge and be grateful for the wonderful gifts of this Parkinson’s experience!