For the record, I do not ‘have’ Parkinson’s Disease. The notion that the condition I am experiencing is a disease [named after the English physician who first identified it] is that of a well-intentioned but, I believe, misinformed medical community that inexplicably continues to hold firm to the idea that it is the death of brain cells in the substantia nigra portion of the brain that is the root cause. [why are cells only dying in the substantia nigra?] .
If you follow professional golf, you will likely be familiar with Australian Jason Day. He recently became the number one golfer in the world! In an interview following his most recent victory, he said that this has been his goal for years.
The purpose of this blog post is to set the record straight … for me! You see, I was raised to understand life in certain ways and this understanding led me to develop a whole raft of detrimental beliefs, which have caused me considerable suffering and are at the root of the neurological condition I’m experiencing. I was also raised in accordance with strict rules and expectations, much of which was based on this understanding, and failure to follow these rules and meet these expectations was often dealt with in quite a harsh way, causing considerable emotional pain, much of which was never resolved.
The biggest single challenge I’ve faced on my journey to recover my health is overcoming the hidden [unconscious] detrimental beliefs, which when triggered, put me in a state of fear that leaves me experiencing extremely intense symptoms. It has been happening almost on a daily basis.
At the root of an unpleasant life situation, for example, a chronic illness, is one or more false beliefs. It’s these false beliefs, for example, the belief that you’re worthless, that create negative feelings such as anxiety and fear that in turn create stress and block healing. An important part of the healing process then, is dissolving negative beliefs.
Earlier this year, I experienced panic attacks for the first time in my life. These panic attacks were triggered by the worsening symptoms I was experiencing. As scary as they were at the time, they led me to a new understanding: that fear is at the root of the symptoms of Parkinson’s.
Case in point!
I stopped believing in the tooth fairy! I also stopped believing in Santa Claus and the Easter Bunny, but I never stopped believing that I was a coward. Nor did I stop believing that I was inferior, inadequate and helpless, and consequently, I never let go of the anger or the fear!
I recently started reading Conversations with God for Teens, by Neale Donald Walsch. While reading the book, I thought about the questions I would want to ask God if I was having a conversation with him or her and the first question that came to mind was, ‘why are so many people struggling to get ahead in this world?’