For many people experiencing the neurological condition known as Parkinson’s disease, anxiety is one of the more common and challenging symptoms.
Anxiety is a feeling of worry, nervousness, or unease, typically about an imminent event or something with an uncertain outcome. It is an expression of fear, created by a thought. Given the challenges of the symptoms and given what the future holds for those who consider their condition to be incurable, it is no doubt that anxiety is so common.
In my last post, I talked about four common factors amongst people who have recovered from a variety of health conditions, according to Dr. Joe Dispenza.
Dispenza goes on to say that the single most important factor in the recovery of one’s health is to reinvent your personality. He claims that specific personality traits led to the development of disease and that good health cannot be restored as long as the same personality traits exist.
It occurred to me a few years ago that my goal isn’t to cure myself of Parkinson’s Disease. This is too daunting an endeavor; one better left to the medical folks. Rather, my goal is to recover my health by returning my body to homeostasis!
I have come to the conclusion that if I [or anybody else for that matter] could get away from life for a year or two [go live in an ashram], I could recover my health. In an ashram, I could devote my entire time each day to healing. The folks who have recovered their health, including John Coleman, David Thompson, Bianca Molle and Howard Shifke, did just that. They quit their jobs and focused on their health. Things being what they are, however, particularly having to run a business, I do not have that luxury at the moment, so I do what I can with the time available to me. [I’m not ruling out the possibility of taking off to some sort of retreat if I don’t soon begin to recover my health.]
Someone asked me recently what specific things I have found helpful on my journey with a neurological disorder, both in terms of minimizing the symptoms I experience and eventually leading to my recovery. This is what I listed:
The biggest single challenge I’ve faced on my journey to recover my health is overcoming the hidden [unconscious] detrimental beliefs, which when triggered, put me in a state of fear that leaves me experiencing extremely intense symptoms. It has been happening almost on a daily basis.
Last weekend, I had two important insights that contributed to the best week I’ve had in months. The first insight was in response to the question I’ve been asking quite frequently, “What is the most important thing I need to do in order to overcome the fear I’m feeling?” What came to me was, ‘adopt a good-natured, adventurous, warrior spirit.’ Live like Captain Jack Sparrow, from Pirates of the Caribbean.
“Andy Kaufman in a wrestling match,” is the second line from REM’s popular hit song, Man on the Moon. It is in reference to the controversial inter-gender wrestling matches the famous comedian staged in the late 70s and early 80s. Although appearing to be a gag [Kaufman even declared himself the inter-gender wrestling champion of the world], some people took it seriously.
I have talked about prayer a lot in these posts because I believe it has played a significant role in the beginnings of my recovery. I have used prayer to address my physical symptoms, release anger and fear and keep my spirits soaring.
In Step 4, we discussed releasing anger and fear, and I would like to expand on this topic by examining the role of unconscious beliefs or hidden fears.
A fear is really just an erroneous belief. If we didn’t believe something to be true, we would have no fear. If we didn’t believe the lion was about to devour us, we wouldn’t be afraid. If we didn’t believe that failure was bad, even humiliating, we likely wouldn’t be afraid of failure. Sometimes, we are aware of our fears and we may even understand why we are afraid. But quite often, we are completely unaware of them or how they are sabotaging our best intentions.