I have been wrestling with the issue of deserving for my entire life. There have been so many occasions when a joyful experience was followed very closely by a painful one! When I was 12 years old, my most exciting athletic accomplishment was followed shortly thereafter by my most painful one. When I was 16 years old, I had the best year of my life in hockey. The following year was my worst. When I was 20, I enjoyed the best baseball game of my life. I got kicked out of the next game in the first inning!
I have had a number of inquiries lately on how to minimize trembling. Let me begin by saying, trembling is not the most challenging symptom for me. Loss of balance, freezing, loss of dexterity in my hands, shuffle walking and constipation are far more challenging.
Since being interviewed by Robert Rodgers last week I have spoken to several people who are really struggling at the moment. And even though we’ve all been diagnosed with the same condition, our challenges are quite varied. Severe trembling, anxiety, panic, headaches, paralysis and immobility, disorientation and the like.
For many people experiencing the neurological condition known as Parkinson’s disease, anxiety is one of the more common and challenging symptoms.
Anxiety is a feeling of worry, nervousness, or unease, typically about an imminent event or something with an uncertain outcome. It is an expression of fear, created by a thought. Given the challenges of the symptoms and given what the future holds for those who consider their condition to be incurable, it is no doubt that anxiety is so common.
In my last post, I talked about four common factors amongst people who have recovered from a variety of health conditions, according to Dr. Joe Dispenza.
Dispenza goes on to say that the single most important factor in the recovery of one’s health is to reinvent your personality. He claims that specific personality traits led to the development of disease and that good health cannot be restored as long as the same personality traits exist.
It occurred to me a few years ago that my goal isn’t to cure myself of Parkinson’s Disease. This is too daunting an endeavor; one better left to the medical folks. Rather, my goal is to recover my health by returning my body to homeostasis!
I have come to the conclusion that if I [or anybody else for that matter] could get away from life for a year or two [go live in an ashram], I could recover my health. In an ashram, I could devote my entire time each day to healing. The folks who have recovered their health, including John Coleman, David Thompson, Bianca Molle and Howard Shifke, did just that. They quit their jobs and focused on their health. Things being what they are, however, particularly having to run a business, I do not have that luxury at the moment, so I do what I can with the time available to me. [I’m not ruling out the possibility of taking off to some sort of retreat if I don’t soon begin to recover my health.]
Someone asked me recently what specific things I have found helpful on my journey with a neurological disorder, both in terms of minimizing the symptoms I experience and eventually leading to my recovery. This is what I listed:
The biggest single challenge I’ve faced on my journey to recover my health is overcoming the hidden [unconscious] detrimental beliefs, which when triggered, put me in a state of fear that leaves me experiencing extremely intense symptoms. It has been happening almost on a daily basis.
Last weekend, I had two important insights that contributed to the best week I’ve had in months. The first insight was in response to the question I’ve been asking quite frequently, “What is the most important thing I need to do in order to overcome the fear I’m feeling?” What came to me was, ‘adopt a good-natured, adventurous, warrior spirit.’ Live like Captain Jack Sparrow, from Pirates of the Caribbean.