In my quest to understand and dissolve the fear that led to the neurological condition I am experiencing, I continue to receive new ideas and perspectives that will eventually lead to a breakthrough and recovery.
Someone asked me recently what specific things I have found helpful on my journey with a neurological disorder, both in terms of minimizing the symptoms I experience and eventually leading to my recovery. This is what I listed:
In the past month, my journey with this neurological condition [parkinson’s] has led me to the door of what I believe is my ultimate destination … Self love! Actually, I’m not quite sure how to characterize this experience. I don’t know if I am intended to discover self love, enact my innate self love or simply actualize self love. Perhaps this uncertainty is moot. The point is, I believe, the reason I developed a very debilitating neurological condition is because I lack self love, and perhaps more to the point, because I am experiencing self loathing. This also led me to the conclusion that our collective journey is all about discovering self love. It is about connecting with our true spiritual ” loving” nature and living in oneness with Spirit [God].
In 1993, I learned about the relationship between present suffering and unresolved emotional pain from the past [especially from childhood experiences]. Since then, I’ve been healing unresolved emotional pain from the past almost on a daily basis, and I’ve experienced many positive results. For instance, I was able to overcome migraine headaches that I had been experiencing at a rate of three to four a week. I have been a big believer in the concept!
Since then, I have also been on an on again, off again quest to discover a process whereby I can dissolve all unresolved emotional energy from the past in one-fell-swoop! In essence, a magic bullet!
I’m thrilled to say that I have been successful in my quest!
I’ve spoken about happiness in a number of blogs including a recent post about detoxification. If you’re attempting to overcome an illness, happiness is essential for healing. As Lissa Rankin explains in a TEDTalk video, lifestyle (aka happiness) is as important to healing as is diet and exercise. Unhappiness, conversely, creates stress and stress weakens the immune system, acidifies the body and creates inflammation. It is no coincidence that I developed Parkinson’s during the unhappiest and most stressful period of my life, particularly as it relates to my job and my marriage.
A young man recently asked me for advice. He wanted to know for someone just starting out how best to live life. When I thought about it, two things occurred to me. First, I felt very honored by the request because I’ve never been asked this before and I understood how genuinely important it was. Second, I realized that the advice I was going to offer this young man, for the most part, would be the same advice I would offer just about anybody, as they are the principles that have become the guiding light for how I live my life … and I’m almost 60.
If you have been following my blogs lately, you’ll know that fear and anxiety have been my preoccupation and my new challenge to overcome. What scares me most, is what appears to be a possible rendezvous with immobility. I was also very worried about the possibility of feeding tubes, but the neurologist I see, thankfully ruled that out. I know the ideal is to not think about the future, and especially not to worry about the future, but that is sometimes easier said than done.
This morning, I was doing a guided meditation on releasing fear when the thought came to me, ‘love is everything,’ or as John Lennon wrote, ‘love is all you need!’ What an important reminder that while releasing fear is essential, living in love is everything!
Deepak Chopra says that anger is an inflammatory emotion. I think fear is a neurologically damaging emotion [for lack of a better term].
Eckhart Tolle is a world renowned spiritual teacher and author of The Power of Now and A New Earth. He has been featured frequently on Oprah Winfrey, who discovered his first book in 2000. Eckhart is a modern day Buddha (although he would likely humbly refute this claim).