I haven’t been blogging much lately as I have been preoccupied with a few things. Namely, Bowen therapy, writing, preparing firewood and kindling and enjoying the summer!
As a follow-up to my last post about the wonders of living on Manitoulin and its contribution to my recovery effort, there is another reason why I love living on the island … magical moments! Like a few days ago when I picked up the crocs I had left on the deck overnight and a tree toad jumped out of them! Reebet!
I moved to Manitoulin Island two years ago in order to get away from the rat-race and focus on returning my body to homeostasis. Although I miss living close to my children and my family, living on the island has been everything I hoped for, for a number of reasons.
During a recent conversation with a friend, I was reminded of the importance of focusing on gratitude, rather than wanting.
When you are living with a chronic health condition it is easy to find yourself wanting to be healthy, wanting to recover your health. But in the world of the law of attraction, when the universe hears, “I want,” it gives us more to want. It keeps us perpetually in this state. Whereas, when we live in a state of gratitude, regardless of what we are grateful for, the universe gives us more to be grateful for.
The truth is, we don’t need to think about wanting to be healthy because the universal-energetic-intelligence [and our higher self] knows what we want. We just need to make sure our actions are in alignment with our objective.
Wanting puts us in a state of unease, whereas gratitude puts us in a state of happiness! When we are happy, our bodies are producing feel-good neurotransmitters, like dopamine and serotonin, so it’s easy to see why it is so advantageous to be in this state!
And I have so much to be grateful for: Mari, my children, my brothers, my friends, where I live, the people who read my books, and so much more! It’s easy for me to have an attitude of gratitude! I can even find plenty of reasons to be grateful for this health condition I’m experiencing because it’s taught me so much, while helping me connect with so many wonderful people all over the world!
I am grateful for the reminder!
If you have been following my blog, you will likely know my belief is this neurological condition we’re experiencing, in fact any challenge we are facing, is meant to guide us to an understanding of our true nature and purpose! It has spiritual meaning!
It is meant for us to learn that we are more than just physical beings here to amass and consume. We are not just the physical bodies we inhabit, nor are we our thoughts and beliefs, or the emotions we feel. We are actually spiritual beings having a human experience, living in oneness with the universal-energetic-intelligence [God]. We are the conscious observers of our body, thoughts, feelings and experiences. This is Eckhart Tolle’s primary message!
But how do we live spiritually given the daily challenges we face? How do we live spiritually when we are in a state of anxiety, trembling, shuffle walking, trying to maintain our balance, struggling to perform simple tasks like tying up our shoes or getting out of a chair, or experiencing constipation? It’s not easy!
To begin, I remind myself every day that what I am experiencing has purpose. Not only is it meant to guide us to spiritual awakening, it is also meant to guide us away from fear, to divine love! To reinforce this, each day I recite my spiritual version of the 23rd Psalm as well as my divine love mantra [see below].
Next, I do my best to live in the present moment. This is another one of Eckhart’s key messages. It is okay to reflect on the past, but we don’t live in it. Similarly, it is okay to plan for the future, but we don’t live in it. We only ever live in the present moment. It’s all there is. I do my best to place my attention on whatever I am doing. I also focus on my breath or simply look around and observe.
Whenever the present moment is unpleasant I do my best to accept the circumstances and remind myself that it is only temporary. It will pass!
I spend time in nature! I love the serenity and I can sense the healing energy! There is nothing quite like the joy of walking through the forest or sitting by the lake!
I talk to the universal-energetic-intelligence. I carry on a conversation just like I would as if I was talking to you. I give thanks. I make observations. It is a great way to connect with the divine!
I live lovingly! I am kind, compassionate, generous, grateful and forgiving! My mantra is, we could change the world simply by being kind to one another!
I practice Qigong. Qigong is about cultivating chi [energy]. It is a very spiritual practice!
I pray as an expression of gratitude!
I yell hallelujah! As I discussed in my last post, this too is a great way to connect with the divine!
I believe in my heart living spiritually is a big, essential step towards recovering my health! At the very least, it helps me to manage my day-to-day challenges in a more loving manner!
23rd Psalm [spiritual version]:
The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not want. Spirit makes me lie down in green pastures and leads me beside still waters. Spirit restores my soul and leads me down a path of spiritual awakening for my highest good. Spirit helps me to feel good about myself. Yea though I walk through the valley of the shadow of impermanence I shall fear no darkness, for thou art with me. Your love and compassion comfort me. You help me to understand, accept and let go of my past, and in the process, you help me to forgive. You also help me to live in the present moment. My life is filled with abundance. Surely peace love joy abundance and bliss will be with me all the rest of my days. And I will dwell in spiritual consciousness forever! Hallelujah!
Divine love mantra:
The universal-energetic-intelligence, which is pure love, wishes to expand itself. It wishes to expand love in the universe, through experience. Through my experience and the experience of every other entity in the universe. We are the vessels for the expression and expansion of love. And the best thing I can do to contribute to this expansion is to fully surrender to the will and wisdom of the universal-energetic-intelligence; live in love by being kind, compassionate, generous, forgiving and grateful; acknowledge my true essence which is divine love; and live in the present moment. And I can do this, because I live in spiritual consciousness and I choose to celebrate life. I choose to honour and enjoy the journey and embrace the adventure. I am so grateful for the opportunity I’ve been given to participate in the flow-of-life and contribute to the expansion of divine love! Hallelujah!
Hallelujah, essentially means to rejoice, to joyously celebrate God [the universal-energetic-intelligence]. It means to celebrate life!
For me, hallelujah is a tool I use on a daily basis to manage this neurological condition I’m experiencing. I use it in two ways. First, I yell hallelujah in order to neutralize the fight or flight state that I find myself in each day. Second, I use it to help me accomplish physical tasks I’m struggling with, like getting out of a chair.
What I find interesting is that I can stay in the fight or flight state for hours at a time at varying levels of intensity where as the joyful feeling I get from yelling hallelujah only lasts a few minutes. Neuroscientist and standup comedian, Dean Burnett, provides an explanation for this phenomenon. In his book, The Idiot Brain, he explains that the hormones released by the body during the fight or flight response, such as adrenaline and cortisol, will stay in the body for up to an hour [in my case, more like a day], where as, the neurotransmitters released during a moment of joy, last only a few minutes.
I guess the preservation of life is more important to the body than happiness. Makes sense!
So I find myself yelling, HALLELUJAH, a lot! I also find looking up, raising my eyebrows and smiling, to be effective, as well.
I’m sure the neighbours are questioning my sanity [they’re sure not questioning my insanity] but nonetheless, I am staying the course!
Oh, by the way, I also yell, WOOHOO, a lot. If it works for Homer Simpson, that’s good enough for me!
I am now into my sixth month of Bowen therapy and since my last update, I am continuing to experience increasingly intense symptoms for a week to 10 days between sessions. Last week, the symptoms I experience, including loss of balance, trembling, slowness of movement, stiff gate and mental fog were particularly debilitating. I am also continuing to experience intense emotional purging, particularly anger.
What is Parkinson’s disease, really? The medical community, the Michael J Fox foundation and the various Parkinson’s societies would have us believe that it is an incurable, progressive, degenerative condition, resulting from the magical die-off of dopamine producing cells in the substantia nigra portion of the brain. They would have us believe that there is no known cause, although they speculate it could be genetic, hereditary or the result of overexposure to chemicals. They would also have us believe that there is no known cure and that the best way to treat the condition [in fact, the only way] is with medication.
Yesterday I witnessed firsthand how the universe magically expresses itself through us!
We may be living with this challenging health condition but that doesn’t mean life can’t be awesome!
Last night, just after sunset [which was spectacular!] a deer passed through our yard! Last week, while eating breakfast on the deck, a bald eagle flew overhead! Twice in the last few days, a hummingbird has hovered inches from my face!
My life is filled with the spectacular moments and I get to experience them every day!
I am blessed for many reasons! I live on a lake on Manitoulin Island! I have three amazing children! I have a wonderful partner! I get to play golf, chop firewood, spend time in nature and write!
It doesn’t mean I don’t have moments of frustration, because I do. It also doesn’t mean I don’t get angry, because I do. But these are just moments and they pass. And then I am blessed with the next spectacular moment!
And I am particularly blessed with the awareness of spiritual consciousness, my divine nature and my oneness with the universal-energetic-intelligence! I am blessed with love!
Yes, my life is awesome!