The other day I found myself unwittingly pondering some experiences from my past of which I am not particularly proud. An announcement concerning the upcoming reunion of a hockey team I used to play for triggered the unpleasant trip down memory lane.
I recently read Howard Shifke’s, Parkinson’s Recipe for Recovery. Shifke, as you may know, is an American lawyer who fully recovered from Parkinson’s in 2010 after being diagnosed in 2009.
One of the keys to health and happiness is self-love! I truly believe this! I also believe that the opposite … self-loathing [lack of self love] and its partner, fear … is at the root of all chronic health conditions.
In my last post, I wrote about how much I enjoy shoveling snow. I really like exercising in the fresh air! As much as I enjoy it though, it has really been messing me up, leaving me experiencing more intense symptoms! The same is true for playing golf, writing and other activities I undertake.
— Bruce Willis, Diehard
I’m riding a bucking bronco! Bobbing on a stormy sea! Being tossed about on the Salt & Pepper Shaker ride at the fair! For the last three months I have been on a heck of a ride on my journey to recovery! Triggered by medical marijuana, I have been processing and purging fear and other long buried emotional stuff that has left me feeling panicky, anxious, frustrated and experiencing very intense symptoms! It has been a challenge!
For many people experiencing the neurological condition known as Parkinson’s disease, anxiety is one of the more common and challenging symptoms.
Anxiety is a feeling of worry, nervousness, or unease, typically about an imminent event or something with an uncertain outcome. It is an expression of fear, created by a thought. Given the challenges of the symptoms and given what the future holds for those who consider their condition to be incurable, it is no doubt that anxiety is so common.
I’m excited to announce that my new book, The History Teacher 2.0, has just been published. I am very excited [and very optimistic]! It’s a really good book with the potential to help anyone who may be struggling, including those experiencing a neurological condition.
It seems that I have come into this life to immerse myself in fear. To know it intimately. And I suspect, at some point, to overcome it in order to enact my innate self-love and recover my health. My childhood years were characterized by a culture of fear. As I wrote in an earlier blog, I was scared all the time. What scared me most, was that people would find out just how scared I was, because I put on a brave front.
Although this is all behind me now and I understand the purpose of my experience, I would love to have had the conversation below with my father while I was growing up. This dialogue is meant to be a script to help me retrain my mind and remap my brain in order to let go of fear. I hope you find it helpful and I urge you to keep reading it everyday, as I will be. I expect that I will be updating it as I receive new ideas. I wish you fearlessness and good health!
While reviewing the manuscript for my second novel, I realized that I was using, ‘I think,’ a lot! In this moment of realization, it occurred to me that this is not a good thing!
This morning I realized I have been feeling a lot of apprehension about living here on Manitoulin Island this winter. It’s the same sort of angst I was feeling about moving here in the first place and it seems to have crept up on me unwittingly. Then I was concerned about moving 6 hours away from my family, living in isolation on a lake 15 minutes from town, by myself for two weeks of the month. So far, it has been great!