I am presently in the midst of an intense healing period. I’m grateful to say that a few blog readers are doing the same protocol and we are sharing our experience. I’m so happy not to be doing this alone. The healing we’re doing is based on a protocol developed by Janice Walton-Hadlock of pdrecovery.org. Walton-Hadlock believes that Parkinson’s disease is not the result of being in a chronic fight-or-flight state of fear, but rather, it is from being in a chronic “pause” state of fear or from being in a chronic “disassociative” state of fear.
I started using medical marijuana a few months ago [which I wrote about in an earlier post] and I would have to say that my experience thus far has been … interesting.
First, I discovered that using marijuana for medical purposes is not an exact science. You have to figure out for yourself the appropriate formula [THC:CBD ratio] and ideal daily dosage. I have yet to figure this out!
I sourced my marijuana oil from a Health Canada approved dispensary. I started with 1.0 ml of a 1:20 THC:CBD formula then switched to 0.5 ml of a 10:10 formula. I took this amount once during the day and again at bedtime. Then I switched the daytime dosage to 1.0 ml of a 4:8: ratio.
So far, there has been no noticeable change in any of my symptoms. I have, however, experienced a considerable amount of anxiety and panic, especially at bedtime and in the middle of the night. Based on comments from others, this appears to be a common reaction. My assumption on this, is that marijuana brings to the surface the fear that is at the root of this health condition … which, as unpleasant as the experience is, makes it a good thing because it allows us to acknowledge the fear and dissolve it!
I’m taking a temporary break from using marijuana because I’m going on a fishing trip. When I return I plan to continue with it because I truly believe in it’s healing potential. I’m only going to use the 4:8: formula and I’m going to start with a much smaller dosage in order to build up a tolerance and minimize the intensity of the anxiety and fear. I will keep you updated on my progress.
— Bruce Willis, Diehard
I’m riding a bucking bronco! Bobbing on a stormy sea! Being tossed about on the Salt & Pepper Shaker ride at the fair! For the last three months I have been on a heck of a ride on my journey to recovery! Triggered by medical marijuana, I have been processing and purging fear and other long buried emotional stuff that has left me feeling panicky, anxious, frustrated and experiencing very intense symptoms! It has been a challenge!
A few weeks ago I started waking up in the middle of the night feeling a bit panicky. It was due to some tightness in my throat [causing me to want to swallow repeatedly] and my tongue sticking to the top of my mouth. It was making think I might suffocate. I knew it was nothing serious [I wasn’t going to suffocate], but still, it was really starting to play on my mind… freak me out! I think it was triggered by the medical marijuana I was taking, because I was also feeling a lot of emotional upheaval during the day. I was getting to the point where I was scared to go to bed. I was doing everything I could to make the feeling go away, but it wasn’t working!
I have long held that view that I’m not suffering from parkinson’s disease. Rather, I am experiencing a health condition characterized by certain symptoms. What is more, I don’t believe that I have to cure the condition. Instead, in order to recover my health I need to return my body to homeostasis.
For many people experiencing the neurological condition known as Parkinson’s disease, anxiety is one of the more common and challenging symptoms.
Anxiety is a feeling of worry, nervousness, or unease, typically about an imminent event or something with an uncertain outcome. It is an expression of fear, created by a thought. Given the challenges of the symptoms and given what the future holds for those who consider their condition to be incurable, it is no doubt that anxiety is so common.
Lately I’ve been focusing on topics and techniques meant to make our journey less stressful. Things such as laughter, karate techniques and spiritual practice. They have been very beneficial for me in managing my symptoms and keeping me in a positive frame of mind. In this post, I would like to touch on another stress buster … music … and more specifically, singing!
Time will tell, but it appears that Donald Trump is here to serve a divine purpose. He is here to be the catalyst that will polarize humanity in order to bring about change on the planet.
In my quest to understand and dissolve the fear that led to the neurological condition I am experiencing, I continue to receive new ideas and perspectives that will eventually lead to a breakthrough and recovery.
I woke up this morning feeling better than I have felt in a long time. The last week has been particularly challenging mainly due to the fear I have been feeling!