Since being interviewed by Robert Rodgers last week I have spoken to several people who are really struggling at the moment. And even though we’ve all been diagnosed with the same condition, our challenges are quite varied. Severe trembling, anxiety, panic, headaches, paralysis and immobility, disorientation and the like.
Thanks to a recent conversation with a friend, I had an epiphany about my experience with this neurological condition. I realized that I have been spending far too much time thinking about the symptoms I experience; wanting not to experience them.
Our journeys, diverse
Our challenges, varied
In his book, Lucky Man, Michael J Fox calls himself a lucky man! He credits experiencing a health condition with making him a better person! I feel the same way!
You’ve probably heard the story of Thomas Edison’s quest to create the light bulb. I’m paraphrasing here, but supposedly Edison tried many, many times unsuccessfully to create the light bulb before he finally did it. When asked if he ever felt like a failure, Edison responded by saying, “No, I just discovered 1000 different ways not to make a light bulb.”
As a whole, I have a cheerful outlook! I hold the belief that I will recover my health and I view my current condition as temporary. I also hold the belief that what I am experiencing has a purpose. It is my guide to spiritual consciousness, self love and good health. My attitude is, to do my best to make each moment as joyful, peaceful and loving as possible because I know that the energy I create in each moment has a ripple effect!
My journey with this neurological condition brought me an insight this week which might just have taken me to the pinnacle of my odyssey … an understanding and actualization of self love!
In order for this to make sense, let me give you some background.
In my quest to understand and dissolve the fear that led to the neurological condition I am experiencing, I continue to receive new ideas and perspectives that will eventually lead to a breakthrough and recovery.
I woke up this morning feeling better than I have felt in a long time. The last week has been particularly challenging mainly due to the fear I have been feeling!
It seems that I have come into this life to immerse myself in fear. To know it intimately. And I suspect, at some point, to overcome it in order to enact my innate self-love and recover my health. My childhood years were characterized by a culture of fear. As I wrote in an earlier blog, I was scared all the time. What scared me most, was that people would find out just how scared I was, because I put on a brave front.
Although this is all behind me now and I understand the purpose of my experience, I would love to have had the conversation below with my father while I was growing up. This dialogue is meant to be a script to help me retrain my mind and remap my brain in order to let go of fear. I hope you find it helpful and I urge you to keep reading it everyday, as I will be. I expect that I will be updating it as I receive new ideas. I wish you fearlessness and good health!