In 1983, I joined a market research company. A few months into the job, I did a presentation to a client accompanied by my account senior and group manager. It wasn’t my first presentation. Every time I looked up during the presentation, my manager was feverishly writing notes, which I took to mean he didn’t like what he was seeing and I started to become unglued. It got so bad that at one point, the Eastern regional sales manager asked me to explain the numbers on a chart, and my response was, “I don’t know, that’s just the way they came out of the computer.” The moment I uttered the words, I knew I had blown it and the presentation went downhill from there. By the end of it, I was a total mess! Afterwards, neither my account senior or manager said anything, but on the way out of the building I declared to myself that I would never let that happen again. And for the next 23 years, I didn’t!
I recently made a similar declaration as it relates to my experience with the symptoms of Parkinson’s.
Since being interviewed by Robert Rodgers last week I have spoken to several people who are really struggling at the moment. And even though we’ve all been diagnosed with the same condition, our challenges are quite varied. Severe trembling, anxiety, panic, headaches, paralysis and immobility, disorientation and the like.
Thanks to a recent conversation with a friend, I had an epiphany about my experience with this neurological condition. I realized that I have been spending far too much time thinking about the symptoms I experience; wanting not to experience them.
You’ve probably heard the story of Thomas Edison’s quest to create the light bulb. I’m paraphrasing here, but supposedly Edison tried many, many times unsuccessfully to create the light bulb before he finally did it. When asked if he ever felt like a failure, Edison responded by saying, “No, I just discovered 1000 different ways not to make a light bulb.”
As a whole, I have a cheerful outlook! I hold the belief that I will recover my health and I view my current condition as temporary. I also hold the belief that what I am experiencing has a purpose. It is my guide to spiritual consciousness, self love and good health. My attitude is, to do my best to make each moment as joyful, peaceful and loving as possible because I know that the energy I create in each moment has a ripple effect!