In a recent conversation, Mari and I agreed that the state of our bodies is largely a reflection of the quality of our thoughts. Yes, nutrition plays a role, as does chemical toxicity, exercise, stretching, relaxation and correcting physical trauma, but more than anything else, it’s our thoughts that determine whether our bodies are going to be in a stressed [fight or flight] state or a relaxed state, and thus, in good health or not.
I am now into my sixth month of Bowen therapy and since my last update, I am continuing to experience increasingly intense symptoms for a week to 10 days between sessions. Last week, the symptoms I experience, including loss of balance, trembling, slowness of movement, stiff gate and mental fog were particularly debilitating. I am also continuing to experience intense emotional purging, particularly anger.
We use a woodstove to heat our home during the winter. It’s the most pleasant form of heat [somebody once described it to me as like, walking into your house and receiving a big, warm hug] and also, the most cost-effective.
This past November, Mari urged me to get more dedicated to my daily recovery protocol. It’s a regimine I created three years ago before I retired from teaching martial arts and moved to Manitoulin Island. At the time, it consisted of 15 physical activities that were intended to support my recovery protocol; activities such as walking, doing push-ups and practising Qigong. I created an Excel spreadsheet to track my progress each day, putting a check mark beside each activity I completed.
Call me crazy, but I quite enjoy shoveling snow! I love the fresh air, the exercise and I even enjoy the snow; white and fluffy as it is! Of course, if I had my choice, I’d be lounging about on a beach somewhere in the South Pacific! Unfortunately, that is not an option at the moment, so best to make the most of our Canadian winters!
Touchwood, but I feel very fortunate that I sleep well! Most nights I sleep straight through, 7 to 8 hours!
This summer, at the behest of Mari, I took up skipping and kayaking! She thought it would be good for my fitness regimen! She was right of course, but I can’t get over how challenging it has been!
To quote a well-used cliche, “I’m not gonna lie to you,” yesterday was a challenging day! I’m not quite sure how to describe it except to say, I was a mess … and I’m not much better today! My voice was very raspy [almost inaudible at times] making it very difficult for me to use speech recognition. My entire body was very tense. There was considerably more trembling in my hands and much more loss of balance and freezing. I was also feeling very irritable and my patience was really put to the test!
Let me begin by saying, even though I’m writing a post about anxiety, I thankfully, do not experience a lot of it. The situations that cause me to experience anxiety include speaking in front of a crowd, packing for a trip or being late for something. These situations are infrequent.