In a recent conversation, Mari and I agreed that the state of our bodies is largely a reflection of the quality of our thoughts. Yes, nutrition plays a role, as does chemical toxicity, exercise, stretching, relaxation and correcting physical trauma, but more than anything else, it’s our thoughts that determine whether our bodies are going to be in a stressed [fight or flight] state or a relaxed state, and thus, in good health or not.
In 1983, I joined a market research company. A few months into the job, I did a presentation to a client accompanied by my account senior and group manager. It wasn’t my first presentation. Every time I looked up during the presentation, my manager was feverishly writing notes, which I took to mean he didn’t like what he was seeing and I started to become unglued. It got so bad that at one point, the Eastern regional sales manager asked me to explain the numbers on a chart, and my response was, “I don’t know, that’s just the way they came out of the computer.” The moment I uttered the words, I knew I had blown it and the presentation went downhill from there. By the end of it, I was a total mess! Afterwards, neither my account senior or manager said anything, but on the way out of the building I declared to myself that I would never let that happen again. And for the next 23 years, I didn’t!
I recently made a similar declaration as it relates to my experience with the symptoms of Parkinson’s.
Let me explain.
Some days I am challenged to accept the symptoms I experience and today is one of those days! I am presently in the middle of a Bowen purging and consequently I am experiencing extremely intense symptoms, especially as it relates to loss of balance, freezing and shuffle walking. Bowen purging seems to bring up a lot of anger which underneath feels like helplessness and shame. Today I’m feeling a lot of anger.
I recently returned from a trip to southern Ontario where I attended my daughter’s wedding and spent time visiting friends. As much as I enjoyed the trip [which I will blog about shortly] it was very stressful and set me back a bit. I am happy to be back home enjoying tranquility here on Manitoulin Island … if a windy day can be considered tranquil!
I haven’t been blogging much lately as I have been preoccupied with a few things. Namely, Bowen therapy, writing, preparing firewood and kindling and enjoying the summer!
As a follow-up to my last post about the wonders of living on Manitoulin and its contribution to my recovery effort, there is another reason why I love living on the island … magical moments! Like a few days ago when I picked up the crocs I had left on the deck overnight and a tree toad jumped out of them! Reebet!
I moved to Manitoulin Island two years ago in order to get away from the rat-race and focus on returning my body to homeostasis. Although I miss living close to my children and my family, living on the island has been everything I hoped for, for a number of reasons.
During a recent conversation with a friend, I was reminded of the importance of focusing on gratitude, rather than wanting.
When you are living with a chronic health condition it is easy to find yourself wanting to be healthy, wanting to recover your health. But in the world of the law of attraction, when the universe hears, “I want,” it gives us more to want. It keeps us perpetually in this state. Whereas, when we live in a state of gratitude, regardless of what we are grateful for, the universe gives us more to be grateful for.
The truth is, we don’t need to think about wanting to be healthy because the universal-energetic-intelligence [and our higher self] knows what we want. We just need to make sure our actions are in alignment with our objective.
Wanting puts us in a state of unease, whereas gratitude puts us in a state of happiness! When we are happy, our bodies are producing feel-good neurotransmitters, like dopamine and serotonin, so it’s easy to see why it is so advantageous to be in this state!
And I have so much to be grateful for: Mari, my children, my brothers, my friends, where I live, the people who read my books, and so much more! It’s easy for me to have an attitude of gratitude! I can even find plenty of reasons to be grateful for this health condition I’m experiencing because it’s taught me so much, while helping me connect with so many wonderful people all over the world!
I am grateful for the reminder!
Hallelujah, essentially means to rejoice, to joyously celebrate God [the universal-energetic-intelligence]. It means to celebrate life!
For me, hallelujah is a tool I use on a daily basis to manage this neurological condition I’m experiencing. I use it in two ways. First, I yell hallelujah in order to neutralize the fight or flight state that I find myself in each day. Second, I use it to help me accomplish physical tasks I’m struggling with, like getting out of a chair.
What I find interesting is that I can stay in the fight or flight state for hours at a time at varying levels of intensity where as the joyful feeling I get from yelling hallelujah only lasts a few minutes. Neuroscientist and standup comedian, Dean Burnett, provides an explanation for this phenomenon. In his book, The Idiot Brain, he explains that the hormones released by the body during the fight or flight response, such as adrenaline and cortisol, will stay in the body for up to an hour [in my case, more like a day], where as, the neurotransmitters released during a moment of joy, last only a few minutes.
I guess the preservation of life is more important to the body than happiness. Makes sense!
So I find myself yelling, HALLELUJAH, a lot! I also find looking up, raising my eyebrows and smiling, to be effective, as well.
I’m sure the neighbours are questioning my sanity [they’re sure not questioning my insanity] but nonetheless, I am staying the course!
Oh, by the way, I also yell, WOOHOO, a lot. If it works for Homer Simpson, that’s good enough for me!
I am now into my sixth month of Bowen therapy and since my last update, I am continuing to experience increasingly intense symptoms for a week to 10 days between sessions. Last week, the symptoms I experience, including loss of balance, trembling, slowness of movement, stiff gate and mental fog were particularly debilitating. I am also continuing to experience intense emotional purging, particularly anger.