One of my three main motivations for recovering my health … other than to live healthy again, walk normally and all that stuff … is to swim! Several years ago, before I moved to Manitoulin Island, I realized that I was losing my ability to swim and by the time I got here in 2016, I had completely lost it.
I would like to share with you my meditation experience and approach! Having said this, I would like you to know that I am no expert in meditation, nor am I a superior meditator.
Worry! In my experience, it is the most challenging issue we face in living with, managing and overcoming the symptoms of PD … and many other conditions, I suspect!
Apathy and depression are also conditions faced by many and it’s quite possible, if not probable, that worry plays a role here, as well.
In a recent conversation, Mari and I agreed that the state of our bodies is largely a reflection of the quality of our thoughts. Yes, nutrition plays a role, as does chemical toxicity, exercise, stretching, relaxation and correcting physical trauma, but more than anything else, it’s our thoughts that determine whether our bodies are going to be in a stressed [fight or flight] state or a relaxed state, and thus, in good health or not.
In 1983, I joined a market research company. A few months into the job, I did a presentation to a client accompanied by my account senior and group manager. It wasn’t my first presentation. Every time I looked up during the presentation, my manager was feverishly writing notes, which I took to mean he didn’t like what he was seeing and I started to become unglued. It got so bad that at one point, the Eastern regional sales manager asked me to explain the numbers on a chart, and my response was, “I don’t know, that’s just the way they came out of the computer.” The moment I uttered the words, I knew I had blown it and the presentation went downhill from there. By the end of it, I was a total mess! Afterwards, neither my account senior or manager said anything, but on the way out of the building I declared to myself that I would never let that happen again. And for the next 23 years, I didn’t!
I recently made a similar declaration as it relates to my experience with the symptoms of Parkinson’s.
Let me explain.
Some days I am challenged to accept the symptoms I experience and today is one of those days! I am presently in the middle of a Bowen purging and consequently I am experiencing extremely intense symptoms, especially as it relates to loss of balance, freezing and shuffle walking. Bowen purging seems to bring up a lot of anger which underneath feels like helplessness and shame. Today I’m feeling a lot of anger.
I recently returned from a trip to southern Ontario where I attended my daughter’s wedding and spent time visiting friends. As much as I enjoyed the trip [which I will blog about shortly] it was very stressful and set me back a bit. I am happy to be back home enjoying tranquility here on Manitoulin Island … if a windy day can be considered tranquil!
I haven’t been blogging much lately as I have been preoccupied with a few things. Namely, Bowen therapy, writing, preparing firewood and kindling and enjoying the summer!
As a follow-up to my last post about the wonders of living on Manitoulin and its contribution to my recovery effort, there is another reason why I love living on the island … magical moments! Like a few days ago when I picked up the crocs I had left on the deck overnight and a tree toad jumped out of them! Reebet!
I moved to Manitoulin Island two years ago in order to get away from the rat-race and focus on returning my body to homeostasis. Although I miss living close to my children and my family, living on the island has been everything I hoped for, for a number of reasons.