I haven’t been blogging much lately as I have been preoccupied with a few things. Namely, Bowen therapy, writing, preparing firewood and kindling and enjoying the summer!
As a follow-up to my last post about the wonders of living on Manitoulin and its contribution to my recovery effort, there is another reason why I love living on the island … magical moments! Like a few days ago when I picked up the crocs I had left on the deck overnight and a tree toad jumped out of them! Reebet!
I moved to Manitoulin Island two years ago in order to get away from the rat-race and focus on returning my body to homeostasis. Although I miss living close to my children and my family, living on the island has been everything I hoped for, for a number of reasons.
During a recent conversation with a friend, I was reminded of the importance of focusing on gratitude, rather than wanting.
When you are living with a chronic health condition it is easy to find yourself wanting to be healthy, wanting to recover your health. But in the world of the law of attraction, when the universe hears, “I want,” it gives us more to want. It keeps us perpetually in this state. Whereas, when we live in a state of gratitude, regardless of what we are grateful for, the universe gives us more to be grateful for.
The truth is, we don’t need to think about wanting to be healthy because the universal-energetic-intelligence [and our higher self] knows what we want. We just need to make sure our actions are in alignment with our objective.
Wanting puts us in a state of unease, whereas gratitude puts us in a state of happiness! When we are happy, our bodies are producing feel-good neurotransmitters, like dopamine and serotonin, so it’s easy to see why it is so advantageous to be in this state!
And I have so much to be grateful for: Mari, my children, my brothers, my friends, where I live, the people who read my books, and so much more! It’s easy for me to have an attitude of gratitude! I can even find plenty of reasons to be grateful for this health condition I’m experiencing because it’s taught me so much, while helping me connect with so many wonderful people all over the world!
I am grateful for the reminder!
Hallelujah, essentially means to rejoice, to joyously celebrate God [the universal-energetic-intelligence]. It means to celebrate life!
For me, hallelujah is a tool I use on a daily basis to manage this neurological condition I’m experiencing. I use it in two ways. First, I yell hallelujah in order to neutralize the fight or flight state that I find myself in each day. Second, I use it to help me accomplish physical tasks I’m struggling with, like getting out of a chair.
What I find interesting is that I can stay in the fight or flight state for hours at a time at varying levels of intensity where as the joyful feeling I get from yelling hallelujah only lasts a few minutes. Neuroscientist and standup comedian, Dean Burnett, provides an explanation for this phenomenon. In his book, The Idiot Brain, he explains that the hormones released by the body during the fight or flight response, such as adrenaline and cortisol, will stay in the body for up to an hour [in my case, more like a day], where as, the neurotransmitters released during a moment of joy, last only a few minutes.
I guess the preservation of life is more important to the body than happiness. Makes sense!
So I find myself yelling, HALLELUJAH, a lot! I also find looking up, raising my eyebrows and smiling, to be effective, as well.
I’m sure the neighbours are questioning my sanity [they’re sure not questioning my insanity] but nonetheless, I am staying the course!
Oh, by the way, I also yell, WOOHOO, a lot. If it works for Homer Simpson, that’s good enough for me!
I am now into my sixth month of Bowen therapy and since my last update, I am continuing to experience increasingly intense symptoms for a week to 10 days between sessions. Last week, the symptoms I experience, including loss of balance, trembling, slowness of movement, stiff gate and mental fog were particularly debilitating. I am also continuing to experience intense emotional purging, particularly anger.
What is Parkinson’s disease, really? The medical community, the Michael J Fox foundation and the various Parkinson’s societies would have us believe that it is an incurable, progressive, degenerative condition, resulting from the magical die-off of dopamine producing cells in the substantia nigra portion of the brain. They would have us believe that there is no known cause, although they speculate it could be genetic, hereditary or the result of overexposure to chemicals. They would also have us believe that there is no known cure and that the best way to treat the condition [in fact, the only way] is with medication.
Yesterday I witnessed firsthand how the universe magically expresses itself through us!
We may be living with this challenging health condition but that doesn’t mean life can’t be awesome!
Last night, just after sunset [which was spectacular!] a deer passed through our yard! Last week, while eating breakfast on the deck, a bald eagle flew overhead! Twice in the last few days, a hummingbird has hovered inches from my face!
My life is filled with the spectacular moments and I get to experience them every day!
I am blessed for many reasons! I live on a lake on Manitoulin Island! I have three amazing children! I have a wonderful partner! I get to play golf, chop firewood, spend time in nature and write!
It doesn’t mean I don’t have moments of frustration, because I do. It also doesn’t mean I don’t get angry, because I do. But these are just moments and they pass. And then I am blessed with the next spectacular moment!
And I am particularly blessed with the awareness of spiritual consciousness, my divine nature and my oneness with the universal-energetic-intelligence! I am blessed with love!
Yes, my life is awesome!
In his book, A New Earth, Eckhart Tolle discusses the importance of enlightened doing, which means, living in spiritual consciousness rather than ego. It could also be stated as, being aware of our thoughts and material motivations, rather than lost in them. He also says, when we are more focused on the goal, rather than what we are doing in the present moment, we create stress for ourselves, and stress is what we need to eliminate in order to recover our health.