One of the most frequent questions I am asked, is how to get off medication. Be it PD meds, anxiety meds or both, there is a genuine desire to be medication free, and thus, free of side-effects and the inevitable loss of efficacy of the medication … it is well-known that over time PD meds lose their efficacy, eventually becoming completely ineffective, the outcome of which is quite grim. Moreover, for the vast majority of people experiencing the symptoms of Parkinson’s disease, and who believe recovery is possible, recovery will involve coming off medication at some point, and this too quite frankly can be a disconcerting prospect. It is akin to a drug addict going through withdrawal.
In 1983, I joined a market research company. A few months into the job, I did a presentation to a client accompanied by my account senior and group manager. It wasn’t my first presentation. Every time I looked up during the presentation, my manager was feverishly writing notes, which I took to mean he didn’t like what he was seeing and I started to become unglued. It got so bad that at one point, the Eastern regional sales manager asked me to explain the numbers on a chart, and my response was, “I don’t know, that’s just the way they came out of the computer.” The moment I uttered the words, I knew I had blown it and the presentation went downhill from there. By the end of it, I was a total mess! Afterwards, neither my account senior or manager said anything, but on the way out of the building I declared to myself that I would never let that happen again. And for the next 23 years, I didn’t!
I recently made a similar declaration as it relates to my experience with the symptoms of Parkinson’s.
Let me explain.
During a recent conversation with a friend, I was reminded of the importance of focusing on gratitude, rather than wanting.
When you are living with a chronic health condition it is easy to find yourself wanting to be healthy, wanting to recover your health. But in the world of the law of attraction, when the universe hears, “I want,” it gives us more to want. It keeps us perpetually in this state. Whereas, when we live in a state of gratitude, regardless of what we are grateful for, the universe gives us more to be grateful for.
The truth is, we don’t need to think about wanting to be healthy because the universal-energetic-intelligence [and our higher self] knows what we want. We just need to make sure our actions are in alignment with our objective.
Wanting puts us in a state of unease, whereas gratitude puts us in a state of happiness! When we are happy, our bodies are producing feel-good neurotransmitters, like dopamine and serotonin, so it’s easy to see why it is so advantageous to be in this state!
And I have so much to be grateful for: Mari, my children, my brothers, my friends, where I live, the people who read my books, and so much more! It’s easy for me to have an attitude of gratitude! I can even find plenty of reasons to be grateful for this health condition I’m experiencing because it’s taught me so much, while helping me connect with so many wonderful people all over the world!
I am grateful for the reminder!
In his book, A New Earth, Eckhart Tolle discusses the importance of enlightened doing, which means, living in spiritual consciousness rather than ego. It could also be stated as, being aware of our thoughts and material motivations, rather than lost in them. He also says, when we are more focused on the goal, rather than what we are doing in the present moment, we create stress for ourselves, and stress is what we need to eliminate in order to recover our health.
A few years ago [I don’t recall exactly when], I noticed that driving intensified my symptoms. Not long after that, I noticed that my symptoms got worse even when I was a passenger in the car.
Last week, I took a rather long driving trip to visit family and friends, including my mentally handicapped brother who is in declining health. Every day involved a significant amount of time in the car, including nine hours on day one and six hours on the last day.
Recently I was walking from the house down to the lake to enjoy the view and the serenity. About halfway down the steps, it suddenly occurred to me that in that moment, I felt normal! My balance was fine [it usually is when I’m walking], there was no freezing, no trembling and no clenching in my hands. My gait was normal as well!
I am rereading Wayne Dyer’s book, change your thoughts change your life, living the wisdom of the Tao. Verse 2 addresses the concept of contrast…Long is defined by short, the high by the low.
Last summer, after retiring from teaching karate, I decided to take up golf again. It has been challenging! Not only am I that much older, I have some physical challenges to manage… loss of balance, trembling, freezing and loss of dexterity [particularly on the left side]. I have also lost a lot of strength, so I don’t hit the ball nearly as far as I used to. On the flipside, I tend to hit the ball much straighter!
I have long held that view that I’m not suffering from parkinson’s disease. Rather, I am experiencing a health condition characterized by certain symptoms. What is more, I don’t believe that I have to cure the condition. Instead, in order to recover my health I need to return my body to homeostasis.
Thanks to a recent conversation with a friend, I had an epiphany about my experience with this neurological condition. I realized that I have been spending far too much time thinking about the symptoms I experience; wanting not to experience them.