A couple of weeks ago I decided to change the focus of the blogs I was posting. I did this for two reasons. First, I have already covered everything I know about recovering from Parkinson’s. It is all included in my protocol! Second, I decided that my posts would be more beneficial if they were more inspirational in nature and content. Help others to experience happiness, even if only for a moment!
Since being interviewed by Robert Rodgers last week I have spoken to several people who are really struggling at the moment. And even though we’ve all been diagnosed with the same condition, our challenges are quite varied. Severe trembling, anxiety, panic, headaches, paralysis and immobility, disorientation and the like.
Our journeys, diverse
Our challenges, varied
“Damn it!” I snapped.
“What’s the matter?” my concerned friend asked.
“I lost my balance and almost fell again!”
“Are you okay?”
My journey with this neurological condition brought me an insight this week which might just have taken me to the pinnacle of my odyssey … an understanding and actualization of self love!
In order for this to make sense, let me give you some background.
Recovering from this neurological condition [parkinson’s]] is mostly about restoring body chemistry. It’s about ‘convincing’ the neurotransmitters that are produced in our brains [mostly dopamine and serotonin] and the hormones that are produced in our endocrine system [mostly adrenaline and cortisol] to return to normal levels. We want more dopamine and serotonin and less adrenaline and cortisol. Which the body wants as well by the way. It wants to be in homeostasis.
I, admittedly, was hesitant to write this post. I didn’t want to be seen as a negative Nellie. Nor did I want to rain on anybody’s parade or dash anybody’s hopes. But I also think it’s important not to give people false hope.
Contrary to the language used on most parkinson’s disease websites, I do not consider myself to be battling parkinson’s. Nor do I think of myself as suffering from a disease. What you fight, fights back! When you believe you are suffering from something, you put yourself in victimhood! I’m not fighting with anything and I’m certainly not suffering!
One of the main challenges I’m being given the opportunity to overcome is the feeling of powerlessness. That is to say, this neurological condition I am experiencing is allowing me to dissolve the belief that I’m a powerless victim.
Experiencing this neurological condition [parkinson’s], any neurological condition, can be very scary. As the condition progresses, it can leave you feeling helpless. At the very least, it can be incredibly frustrating. Yesterday, during one of those moments of frustration, I had to remind myself that I chose this journey. On a soul level, I chose this experience for my own spiritual growth.