It has been two months since my last post on my journey experiencing the symptoms of Parkinson’s. Since that post, my journey has taken an abrupt turn!
When I was diagnosed with PD in 2008, I made the decision at that time to deal with it naturally. The neurologist who diagnosed me explained that the only way to treat PD was with medication. I said, no thank you. I felt confident that I could overcome the condition by healing the emotional root cause … the same way I had overcome food sensitivities and migraine headaches.
I admittedly knew very little about Parkinson’s at the time. I thought it only involved trembling. I knew about Michael J Fox and Muhammad Ali but I was convinced that what they were experiencing wasn’t going to happen to me. Little did I know!
Skip forward a few years to last January when I added Bowen therapy to my protocol. I did so because John Coleman, the Australian naturopath who fully recovered from Parkinson’s, included this therapy as part of his protocol. After nine months of no progress [In fact I was getting worse], I stopped the Bowen treatments at the end of October. Then in early November, I started experiencing ongoing intense anxiety and panic, further intensifying my symptoms.
After six weeks of living with anxiety and panic on a daily basis, I went to the hospital where I was prescribed with an anxiety medication [Clorazepam] which gave me immediate relief. The next day however, whether triggered by the medication or something else, I found myself back at the hospital experiencing almost complete loss of mobility.
I spent a week in the hospital, where, after three long conversations with a doctor, I agreed to go on a Parkinson’s medication [levodopa], as well as, a different anxiety medication [Lorazepam for the short-term and Sertraline HCL for the long term].
They started me off on three levodopa tablets per day and by the time I left the hospital, I was up to 6 tablets [two tablets three times per day].
After three days in the hospital I started regaining mobility, including walking with a walker, and by the time I got out of of the hospital there was a significant improvement in all the symptoms I was experiencing when compared with what I was experiencing prior to the onset of the anxiety and panic. Admittedly, the medication has made a big difference.
Why all this happened, why I started experiencing anxiety, leading to loss of mobility, I suspect had a lot to do with fear and my thoughts. As my symptoms worsened I spent more time dwelling on and worrying about it, further intensifying the symptoms, leading to more worry. I was caught on a mouse wheel … the proverbial snowball rolling downhill.
I have done a lot of research since getting home from the hospital and it has given me a better understanding and appreciation for how the quality of our thoughts determines the quality of our physical, mental and emotional health and the quality of our life. Eckhart Tolle says, if you are experiencing anxiety, you must first examine your thoughts. I know my thoughts were working against me. The mere fact that I ended up immobile in the hospital is proof of that.
So now I’m in the process of regrouping, determining where I go from here. I’ve been doing a lot of research on how to overcome anxiety because I believe overcoming anxiety and recovering from the symptoms of Parkinson’s are closely related.
For the time being, I am doing my daily regimen and I’m really focusing on meditation, breathing exercises and Qigong. I’m also taking cannibis CBD oil and finding it very helpful.
I discovered a really informative Buddhist monk, Gelong Thubten, who specializes in teaching meditation. He has a very simple and interesting perspective on meditation and a terrific technique for meditating. He also has a bunch of videos on YouTube and there is one video in particular that I really like! Meditation has many benefits including taking your mind off the things that are troubling you, neutralizing stress and raising your vibrational frequency.
I also discovered a video by Mel Robbins who describes a terrific technique for desolving anxiety. Now when I find myself feeling anxious because I’m dwelling on the symptoms I’m experiencing or worrying that they’re going to get worse I use her technique. I count from five back to one, then I say, “I am so excited about developing an awesome meditation practice!”
I discovered yet another video from projectlifemastery.com describing how a change in your body language/posture, changing your focus and using empowering language helps us overcome anxiety and fear.
This experience has not shaken my belief that I will eventually recover my health. I still believe in my heart that it is possible and I also believe that each obstacle I encounter, each challenge I face, is meant to teach me something and is meant to expand and strengthen me spiritually. In that regard, one of the things this experience has forced me to do, is examine my primary motivation for recovering my health. If you had asked me before, I likely would’ve said it was because I wanted to know how to recover my health in order to help others. But the truth is, upon closer inspection, my primary motivation was rooted in fear … the fear of not being unable to look after myself. Now I have experienced that and discovered that I was okay. I learned there are lots of very kind and compassionate people ready to take care of others [the nurses at the hospital were awesome!].
In my experience, overcoming fear begins with love, trust and enthusiasm! Where there is love, trust and enthusiasm, fear cannot exist! Thoughts rooted in love, trust and enthusiasm are far more powerful and affective than any medication! According to Gelong Thubten, a daily meditation practice and living in the present moment throughout the day is an effective way to cultivate the healthy thoughts that help us achieve a state of love, trust and enthusiasm. I’m sure, Bianca Molle, who fully recovered from the symptoms of Parkinson’s through a three hour a day Qigong practice would say the same thing about Qigong.
So I’m going to be doing a lot of meditating, Qigong, exercising, spending time in nature and focusing on spirituality.
Wishing you good health and many blessings!