In a recent conversation, Mari and I agreed that the state of our bodies is largely a reflection of the quality of our thoughts. Yes, nutrition plays a role, as does chemical toxicity, exercise, stretching, relaxation and correcting physical trauma, but more than anything else, it’s our thoughts that determine whether our bodies are going to be in a stressed [fight or flight] state or a relaxed state, and thus, in good health or not.
There are a lot of theories floating around about the cause and solution relating to the symptoms of Parkinson’s: vitamin B1 deficiency, Mercury toxicity, inflammation, the death of dopamine producing cells. Yes, they may be a factor, but rarely do you hear anyone talking about the role of fear and our thoughts in the development of this health condition. The one exception is Robert Rodgers in his book, The Road to Recovery from Parkinson’s Disease.
My belief is that I developed the symptoms of PD because of a lifetime of living in chronic stress and fear due to the beliefs I developed from the thoughts I was thinking and the things I was told.
In March of 2014, I experienced a panic attack for the first time in my life. It was in the afternoon and I was doing stretches. I was having difficulty transitioning from one stretch to another when I had the thought, what if I completely lose the ability to move.
On the one hand, I wish I had never had that thought, but on the other hand, I’m glad I did because it showed me the root cause of this condition … FEAR… and fear caused by but one thing, our thoughts [up until that point, I thought anger was the root cause]!
Even as I write this post, I am in an intense state of fear [feeling panicky], and have been all day. In fact, I’ve been in this state on and off for the past few weeks. It started when I woke up in the middle of the night about three weeks ago feeling panicky.
When I’m in this state, I do a few things:
- Most importantly, I remind myself that the reason I’m in this state is because I’ve had a thought triggered by an unconscious belief that I created at a time in my life when I was spiritually unconscious and didn’t feel good about myself. I also remind myself that what I am experiencing is just a feeling, created by a thought, and nothing more. This helps to take the fear out of the experience. I don’t spend time trying to figure out what the thought was that triggered the fear. Most of the time they are so fleeting I don’t even notice them.
- I also repeat my divine love mantra … Thank you spirit, higher self and spirit healers for immersing me in divine love. Thank you for the light that shines on me filling me up with divine goodness and compassion, forgiveness and gratitude, understanding and abundance, patience and trust, acceptance and faith, and physical, mental and emotional tranquility. Thank you for hovering over me and immersing me in divine light. And thank you for helping me to dissolve and purge all the detrimental beliefs that are at the root of the fear I’m feeling. And thank you for the light that shines on me filling me with happiness, kindness, courage, confidence and self love. And thank you for bringing me an awesome day! For I am the light, the light is within me, the light moves throughout me, the light surrounds me, the light protects me, I am the light!
- I also exercise, practise Qigong, meditate, practice living in the present moment, watch funny and inspiring videos on YouTube [especially Rick Mercer], spend time outside and spend time in nature!
- I also take Valerian Root, Natural Factors Stress Relax Serenity Formula and Bach Flower Essence Rescue Remedy. [I don’t take medication]
- I smile and yell hallelujah a lot!
For me, the two most unpleasant aspects of this Parkinson’s experience are constipation and the panicky feelings. For constipation, I take magnesium, and it works. It keeps me regular. For the panicky feelings, I do all of the above and I remind myself that the fear I’m experiencing and this Parkinson’s experience as a whole are meant to guide me to spiritual consciousness, divine love and a life without fear.
In getting back to the conversation with Mari that I spoke about at the beginning, I decided to retrain my body. I do this by saying, now I move with ease, or now I walk with ease, or now I stand up with ease, or now I lift my glass with ease, or now I stand steady. I do this constantly, every time I move! And it really helps! Because my body has been trained to live in fear, to be in a state of fight or flight, and therefore, to be impaired in its movements.
It seems to me, that this is all part of the process, all part of what I need to do to return my body to homeostasis and recover my health!