Some days I am challenged to accept the symptoms I experience and today is one of those days! I am presently in the middle of a Bowen purging and consequently I am experiencing extremely intense symptoms, especially as it relates to loss of balance, freezing and shuffle walking. Bowen purging seems to bring up a lot of anger which underneath feels like helplessness and shame. Today I’m feeling a lot of anger.
I went outside to get some fresh air and exercise. I have been topping up our driveway with limestone and I thought some shoveling and wheelbarrowing would help me feel better. Unfortunately, it had the opposite effect. I kept losing my balance, losing control of the wheelbarrow and stumbling around. At one point, I lost my balance and stumbled into a tree. This triggered enormous anger which was not necessarily expressed in a constructive way.
Eckhart Tolle says that one of the keys to happiness and eliminating stress is acceptance of the present circumstances, which is to say, acceptance of the present moment. It seems that I still have some challenges to overcome on this aspect of human experience. I know what to do, I just need to take a deep breath and do it!
As it relates to Bowen therapy, I have been corresponding with John Coleman, the Australian naturopathic doctor who fully recovered from Parkinson’s. Part of John’s protocol, included Bowen therapy. His experience with Bowen was quite different from mine in that he didn’t experience a 10 to 12 day period of intense symptoms, lucid dreams, waking up in the middle of the night and intense mental fog. He offered a few suggestions including drinking more water because it is important to hydrate the facia during Bowen therapy. He also offered to speak directly to my Bowen therapist.
I think the reason I’m waking up in the middle of the night and experiencing lucid dreams, which seem to be problem-solving dreams, is because these dreams are my way of processing and dissolving all the unresolved emotional pain I have been holding on to.
It continues to be a fascinating journey, filled with mystery and significant challenges. I continue to hold the belief that one day I will wake up and the symptoms will be gone. In the meantime, I will do my best practice acceptance.