To quote a well-used cliche, “I’m not gonna lie to you,” yesterday was a challenging day! I’m not quite sure how to describe it except to say, I was a mess … and I’m not much better today! My voice was very raspy [almost inaudible at times] making it very difficult for me to use speech recognition. My entire body was very tense. There was considerably more trembling in my hands and much more loss of balance and freezing. I was also feeling very irritable and my patience was really put to the test!
I don’t know what caused it; something put me in an intense state of fog and fear. At least that’s what it felt like. Fear!
In order to get through the experience, I focused on raising my vibrational frequency. I practised Qigong, went for a walk and went for a dip in the lake. I also focused on eexpressing gratitude/appreciation and surrendering to the experience. I also did my best to stay in the moment by focusing on my breath.
Lastly, I was reminded of a insight I received recently while watching an episode of Highway to Heaven, which was, out of a situation that appears to be bad, something good will happen!
It isn’t clear to me what this experience is all about, but I am trusting that it has a purpose and so I am going with the flow [of life]. Anything else, any other attitude, puts me in a state of resistance, which lowers my vibrational frequency and thus works against me.