I am presently in the midst of an intense healing period. I’m grateful to say that a few blog readers are doing the same protocol and we are sharing our experience. I’m so happy not to be doing this alone. The healing we’re doing is based on a protocol developed by Janice Walton-Hadlock of pdrecovery.org. Walton-Hadlock believes that Parkinson’s disease is not the result of being in a chronic fight-or-flight state of fear, but rather, it is from being in a chronic “pause” state of fear or from being in a chronic “disassociative” state of fear.
The pause state of fear occurs when you are in a perpetual state of believing that your life is in danger, that you are not safe and that you are on the verge of death. This is common among people who have had severe head trauma including concussions [I have had two concussions and severe whiplash from a car accident].
The disassociative state of fear occurs when you’ve had a very traumatic experience that you have chosen to disassociate from, usually one that you don’t remember [I have had at least one such experience].
Walton-Hadlock goes on to say that we actually develop “pause” and “blocker” personalities, [the role of the blocker personality is to protect the pause personality].
When I first started following her protocol, I felt great. There was a significant improvement in all of my symptoms. But then I had a dramatic regression, which apparently is common, as the blocker personality fights to stay alive. Eckhart Tolle talks about a similar phenomenon involving the ego and the pain body.
I really resonate with Walton-Hadlock’s theory, as it explains so much of my experience and so many of my unanswered questions. So I’m going to stick with it and I will keep you posted on my progress!
In the meantime, I ask you to consider this. We are not identified by whatever health condition we are experiencing and this goes for Parkinson’s disease. Please don’t say my Parkinson’s disease. Don’t take ownership of it. First, it is not a disease [It is simply an indicator that your body is not in homeostasis] and secondly, we don’t own it. It is just an experience and it is temporary.
Similarly, there is more to us than what we can see and feel. We are more than just the body we inhabit. We are more than the thoughts we think and we are more than the emotions we feel. We are divine spiritual beings having a human experience, living in oneness with the universal-energetic-intelligence [god] and all that is. We are the conscious observer of our experiences. We are pure beings of light and love!
And as for this health condition we are experiencing, it too shall pass!