Contrary to the language used on most parkinson’s disease websites, I do not consider myself to be battling parkinson’s. Nor do I think of myself as suffering from a disease. What you fight, fights back! When you believe you are suffering from something, you put yourself in victimhood! I’m not fighting with anything and I’m certainly not suffering!
The language I prefer to use and the perspective I choose to have is about experiencing. I think of myself as experiencing a neurological condition that has a purpose. This way of looking at my situation is empowering!
Prior to developing the symptoms I am experiencing, I was a driven person. I was obsessed with money and preoccupied with climbing the corporate ladder. I was living in fear and anger without knowing it and I was unhappy and unfulfilled. Since then, I’ve been introduced to an entirely new world, a world where tranquility is possible, where joyful living is the norm and where loves reigns supreme!
Yes indeed, I have been given a gift, the gift of knowledge, understanding and self love! Knowing that what I am experiencing has a purpose, has given me this gift!
So what has this health condition brought me? It has guided me to the following:
- An understanding of body basics
- An understanding of the role of fear and anger in the development of dis-ease
- A better understanding of stress
- An understanding of feeling good about myself
- Spiritual consciousness
- Self love
I have learned about the immune system, the digestive system, the lymphatic system, inflammation, alkalinity and the interconnectedness of all of our internal systems. I know that 80% of our immune system is situated in the gastrointestinal tract and when we eat unhealthy foods it compromises the health of our digestive system and our immune system. I know that the role of the lymphatic system is to clean metabolic wastes from our cells and when it is clogged up from eating unhealthy foods, wastes begin to build up and cell health is compromised.
The role of fear and anger in the development of disease:
Fear and anger put us in a state of fight or flight. In this state, our body produces adrenaline and cortisol and shuts down the production of dopamine and serotonin. When this state becomes chronic, we develop neurological dysfunction [parkinson’s]. Furthermore, anger is an inflammatory emotion. The more anger we experience the more inflammation we create in our body, taxing our immune system and lymphatic system, eventually exhausting them.
Stress results from not letting go of the past, an unwillingness to accept the present circumstances and fear of the future. When we’re in the state of stress, we’re in a state of fight or flight. The desire to be in a state of non-stress guides us to acceptance, trust and faith, the pillars of tranquility and peace of mind.
Feeling good about myself:
Prior to developing this neurological condition, I had little awareness of the concept of feeling good about myself [self esteem]. I didn’t truly understand what it meant and I certainly didn’t make it a daily practice. Nor did I teach it to my children. I know now that it stems from being kind, acting with integrity, forgiving, being grateful, focusing on doing my best, eating healthy foods, letting go of emotional pain and living fearlessly. It has changed my entire way of living and interacting with others. I now know that kindness is the single most important thing we can offer the world!
Before PD, I was about a spiritually unconscious as a person could be. I wasn’t aware of our divine spiritual essence. I wasn’t aware of our connection to god [that we are god]. I wasn’t aware of our oneness with the universe and everything in it. This awareness has changed my outlook. It has changed how I live my life. It has altered my priorities. I now see people differently. I understand detrimental behavior. I am more at peace!
Before my health challenges, wealth was my priority. I was hell-bent on accumulating as much money as possible in order to accumulate things and have status. This is no longer a priority for me. Everything unpleasant we experience, both individually and collectively, is meant to guide us to self love. Fear, anger, health crisis, financial crisis, relationship breakup, all serve this purpose.
Yes, I can say with conviction that experiencing what the medical community calls parkinson’s disease, has been an enormous gift for me. It has certainly changed my life. It has given physical, mental and emotional challenges, that have led me to meaning and understanding. A gift indeed!
Have an awesomely rewarding day!