In my last post, I wrote about the severe symptoms I experienced after attending my aunt’s celebration of life ceremony. For three days after the ceremony, my balance was way off and I experienced more intense freezing. In trying to understand what was going on, I realized that I had triggered unresolved grief and guilt, among other emotions. To put it in Eckhart Tolle’s terms, I had triggered the ‘pain body.’ It was very intense and I was quite concerned for my well being. I was also concerned about another celebration of life that I was planning to attend this past weekend for longtime family friend, a man I had called Uncle Paul all my life.
Due in part to this awareness about triggering the pain body I felt much better after Paul’s ceremony and I still felt okay after visiting my dad yesterday. He has been in the hospital the past two months experiencing dementia and his health has deteriorated substantially since my last visit four weeks ago.
Tolle claims that we all have a pain body and we activate it through present experiences and thoughts [stress]. He contends that the best way to dissolve it is to simply observe it objectively, without judging it or attaching to it. By not falling victim to it, we weaken its energy field and eventually, it dissolves. Spiritual catalyst, Teal Swan, recommends a similar approach. She suggests, that rather than running away from the feelings, we turn around and walk right back into them. Not in a defiant sort of way, but rather with an attitude of acceptance. Further, Swan suggests that we bring our attention to what we want [tranquility and happiness] rather than what we’re trying to avoid [fear, anger, guilt and grief].
I was also reminded during this process of how important it is to focus on creating joy in the present moment [in each and every present moment], and of equal importance, to dream big. To thank God for helping me to recover my health in order for me become well known so that I can help others recover theirs. In other words, focus my attention on the positive [on what I want] rather than the turmoil I’m in the midst of.
The gist of all this is that I’m feeling much better than I was last week at this time, mentally, emotionally and physically.
My journey to recover my health is been quite an adventure! I don’t know how long it is going to last, but I do know I’m going to do my best to enjoy it, because it is so incredibly fascinating!
Have an awesomely fascinating day!