Let me explain!
I believe that the purpose of life is to become conscience [Buddhists call it becoming enlightened]. It is to understand the truth of our existence and to experience oneness and our connection with God and all that is. It is to live in the present moment and dissolve fear in order to live in love. It is to live in acceptance, trust and faith!
So what happens? I develop this condition, this neurological disorder [called parkinson’s] that is both meant to guide me to this purpose, and yet at the same time, make it a very difficult if not impossible objective to achieve. For example, I am meant to live in the present moment, but because of the neurotransmitter imbalance I am experiencing it is very difficult to do so because my mind is constantly wandering. What is more, quite often I really don’t want to be in the present moment because doing so brings me face to face with many of the symptoms I experience, like trembling, loss of balance and loss of mobility. To be honest with you, I would really rather be placing my attention on something else.
Then there is fear! We are meant to overcome fear and actualize the loving beings we truly are, and yet this neurological condition is the result of fear. And even more confounding, as it progresses it creates even more fear. Enormous fear at times! Sheesh! C’mon God, give me a chance!
And finally, in order to recover my health I know I need to restore my body to homeostasis and one of the best ways to do this this through laughter and happiness. But again, because my neurotransmitters are out of balance, I’m much more prone to irritability and anger than I am to happiness.
This whole situation is definitely a conundrum!
It is ingenious!
So, what do I do?
I must stay the course! It is essential that I accept my situation, trust that what is happening is happening for a reason and have faith that it is possible for me to recover my health and that no matter what happens, I’ll be okay. I believe in my heart that it is possible for me to recover and that God wants me to do so. More importantly though, God wants me to become conscious. God wants me to let go of fear and live in love.
God wants me to succeed!
Have an awesomely successful day!