Have you ever had one of those situations where you just wanted it to go way? That is how I’m feeling right now! Ever since the beginning of my dad’s recent health crisis, I have been experiencing incredibly intense fear induced symptoms and I just want it to go away!
It’s like every fear I ever experienced as a child is rearing its ugly head, awakening, begging to be purged. So I purge … and purge! And I remind myself of two things. First, that this is a process and it may take some time and it may not be easy, but it must be done because at the end of it is recovery. Second, that this is a gift my father is giving me. The gift of being free of fear. The gift of love!
And so I give thanks! Thanks for living on the lake where I can experience some measure of peace. Thanks for having a labyrinth nearby where I receive amazing insights. And thanks to my father, for the sacrifice he has made and is making to help me on my journey, of understanding and enacting love, through understanding and dissolving fear.
I often wonder how I will ever possibly articulate to anyone what I’ve been going through, or more importantly, how I will use this experience to help others. Hopefully, this wisdom will come to me at some point. For the moment, I can only experience!
Fear will go away at some point and recovery will manifest. Of this I’m certain. In the meantime, I will put on my protective headgear, strap myself in and hang on for dear life! This is one heck of a ride!
Have an awesomely blissful day!