I recently overcame a fairly major crisis. It began near the end of March when I started having anxiety and panic attacks [common aspects of PD]. I have never experienced anything quite like it and I hope I never do again. At times it felt like I was losing my mind.
Three things helped me get through this crisis:
- I learned that anxiety [and panic] are, in part, the result of having weak adrenal glands, and I’ve been addressing this with supplements.
- I learned that the manifestation of anxiety is simply fear wanting to get out of the body, and I’ve been addressing this through EFT, meditation and my healing mantra.
- I visited my neurologist and found out the thing I was most afraid of [my throat closing over and having to use a feeding tube] isn’t going to happen [the throat doesn’t close over. Instead, it’s ability to move food from the mouth to the esophagus diminishes]. In other words, the fear I was experiencing wasn’t real. It was just faulty thinking.
I haven’t had any panic attacks since visiting the neurologist and only a couple of minor bouts of anxiety, which is very awesome! Quite a relief indeed!
The end, however, isn’t in sight just yet. There is another crisis looming [another opportunity perhaps] and it has mainly to do with mobility. I am continuing to lose mobility, strength, dexterity and coordination, particularly on the left side of my body. This greatly concerns me, particularly as it relates to my ability to take care of myself. I love my independence and I want to maintain it for as long as I can [ideally, another 40 to 50 years!] I’m doing my best stay in the moment and surrender to whatever lies ahead, but it is hard not to feel anxiety from time to time.
In the meantime, I’m continuing to focus on my recovery and expressing gratitude that I’m no longer experiencing panic attacks.
This averted crisis did have one other important benefit. It served as a reminder that for every problem, there is a solution. When I first started experiencing panic attacks I didn’t know about the role of the adrenal glands, nor the role of anxiety in releasing fear, nor that I was operating under false information. This gives me great hope that there is indeed a solution for my diminishing mobility and the other conditions that are continuing to progress. It gives me great hope that the any additional information I need to have will come to me at the appropriate time. I just have to stay the course and keep digging and maintaining a positive attitude.
Have an awesomely positive day!