The biggest challenge for me on my journey with Parkinson’s is not having Parkinson’s or coping with the symptoms that characterize the condition. Rather, it is overcoming fear! It is not experiencing constriction in my throat. It is the fear of losing the ability to swallow. It is not experiencing loss of mobility. It is the fear of becoming immobile. It is not the softening of my voice. It is the fear of not being able to speak. It is not having low blood pressure. It is the fear of my heart giving out. And these fears can be overwhelming at times!
If you read my second last blog, you’ll know that I recently started experiencing anxiety and panic, common Parkinson’s symptoms. Anxiety and panic are the result of the fear and fear comes from a lack of faith and trust. According to Eckhart Tolle, this happens when we are stuck in ego … that is, when we are mired in the negative thinking of our egoic mind. [Apparently, weak adrenal glands are also a factor in the manifestation of anxiety, but for now, we’re going to focus on the fear aspect of it.]
I thought I had faith and trust [after all, I teach it]. I believe very strongly in God [the universal energy that is everything that exists]. My belief is that God is in everything … God IS everything! This you would think would imply faith and trust. Apparently, not so! [I’m not attempting to be hard on myself. I’m simply explaining my perspective.]
This morning, I decided to watch Joel Osteen. Osteen is an American preacher and televangelist, and the Senior Pastor of Lakewood Church in Houston, Texas, the largest Protestant church in the United States. I enjoy his sermons. The sermon today, sychronistically enough, was about overcoming fear through empowerment, and the key to empowerment according Osteen is to recognize the divine power within us.
This simple perspective triggered an epiphany: God’s power lies within me [it truly does] and this power can be used to transcend fear because God is pure love and love trumps fear. I can use it to cultivate faith and trust because God wants me to succeed. I can use it change how I feel about my experience with Parkinson’s.
Overcoming fear may be a challenge for me because it has dominated so much of my life, but as Osteen says, ” Act powerful until you feel powerful, because God always has your back.” In addition to acting powerfully there are several other things I will do to let go of fear and empower myself:
- Live in the present moment
- Repeat the mantra, ‘the kingdom and power of God lies within me.’
- Do Emotional Freedom Technique [tapping]
- Do my healing prayer [see below]
- Meditate on my oneness with God
Jesus said, “The kingdom of God is within you.” This kingdom is the empowerment that comes comes from living in faith and trust. It is also the peace of mind that comes from surrendering to the experience.
I can’t imagine a better or more powerful feeling than living without fear!
Have an awesomely powerful day!
“Thank you God I am for neutralizing the energetic frequency, healing and releasing from my body all unresolved emotional energy, all fear, all faulty beliefs and all aspects of me and all aspects of any other soul, in or out of my bloodline, that needs to be healed and released in order for me to release and let go of the fear I am experiencing. I thank you God I Am for this healing and I thank you for increasing the effectiveness of this healing by 100 times or more.”