Experiencing Parkinson’s can sometimes leave you feeling very helpless. When you struggle with simple day to day tasks and as you watch certain symptoms progress, feelings of helplessness can overcome you.
If, growing up, you had experiences (which I did) that left you feeling helpless and you didn’t resolve the emotional pain connected to these experiences (which I didn’t), living with Parkinson’s will surely bring them to the surface (which it has).
For me, these feelings of helplessness are usually expressed in the form of anger, sometimes, overwhelming rage, and all I can do is stick my face in a pillow and scream until they’re gone (until I feel better). I don’t mind telling you that it is a difficult process but it feels good when I’m finished. Because it is an unorthodox process, it can feel embarrassing and even shameful, but I have to remind myself this healing is necessary and there’s no need for judgment.
Releasing unresolved emotion pain aside, the truth is we’re never completely helpless. There’s always something we can do. Some action we can take. Words we can express. We have a choice. We may have to pay a price for our actions (a young child may be punished or fall into his or her parent’s disfavour, or you may get beat up standing up to a bully), but paying a price for our actions is a far better option than the price you pay for doing nothing. It far exceeds feelings of helplessness. As William Wallace said to his men before their first battle in the movie Braveheart, “Would you not trade all the rest of your days living under tyranny for one day of freedom.” Having experienced feelings of helplessness, I would answer this question with a resounding, YES!
Feeling helpless has a way of stripping you of your self esteem. It makes you feel bad about your yourself. It imprisons you. It is essential that you not succumb to these feelings. That you take action. That you empower yourself. This too, is part of the healing process. It is part of the growth process. Taking action will help you feel good about yourself and when you feel good about yourself, you are unstoppable!
So when you feel frustrated, when you feel angry, when you feel helpless, accept that this is okay and that these are natural feelings. Choose to be patient and choose to heal. This is empowerment!
Have an awesomely empowering day!
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